I was never recruited.

At Northeastern, I started out as the team manager. That was the only way in I could find, so I took it. I handled gear and logistics and watched practice from the sideline, and I kept showing up year after year. In the spring of my fifth year they finally brought me onto the team as a practice player. I was a full member of the squad, but only ever to that extent, and I never got a single competitive minute. No program has ever recruited me, at any level. Every roster I have truly belonged to since, I earned by knocking on doors and refusing to leave.

What that actually looked like is not glamorous. I have been on trial more than twenty times and been cut more often than not. I spent hundreds of hours scraping coaches' contact details and sent thousands of cold emails and direct messages, and the truth is most of them went nowhere. The small fraction that landed are the entire reason I have a career.

I got to Finland by offering to design for a sports agency in exchange for them placing me overseas, and they put me in the fifth tier. From there it was the same grind, one rung at a time. More cold emails climbed me to the fourth. More messages, this time to coaches in the Czech Republic, got me to SC Znojmo FK in the third. Somewhere in the middle of all of it I stopped treating my Instagram like a personal account and rebuilt it into something closer to a scouting profile: real highlight clips, my actual numbers, clear notes on how I play and where I fit. That profile is what put me in front of the right people in Puerto Rico, and it is the reason I am playing professionally today.

Once you have done it the hard way, you start to see how the system really works. College recruiting runs through gatekeepers: club directors, paid recruiting services, ID camps with an entry fee, blast emails that no coach ever opens. Almost none of it measures whether you can actually play. Mostly it measures whether your family can afford to be in the room. Plenty of talented players never get seen for no better reason than that.

What I learned along the way is that the gate has a side door, and it was never really a secret. It is just a profile that honestly represents you, sent to the right coach at a moment they care about. I ran that play on myself across three countries and it worked every single time. The problem was never that it was complicated. The problem was that nobody had made it simple, and nobody had made it free.